Wednesday, April 30, 2008 Hane is walking with God - paving the paths.
5:16 PM
Part II
"Hane was brought up in a non-christian family. Her parents (Mr & Mrs Koi) ran a small business dealing with antiques trading and things were going pretty well until the year when Hane was borned. In 1986, the Hotel New World collapsed. The nation faced with immediate economy down-turned - many people lost their jobs; business industries were tremendously affected. Hane's family business suffered and in less than six months, Mr & Mrs Koi lost their entire business and owed the bank a lofty sum. It was the beginning of a dolorous history for Hane.
During those times, the significance of baby Hane in the family was almost insignificant. Mr & Mrs Koi were busy trailing ways to salvage their business and left baby Hane with a neighbour to babysit. Mrs Tay (neighbour) was happily married with three children who were already in their mid-20s. If there were anyone who had made a difference in Hane's life, the first trophy would be rewarded to Mrs Tay. At least to Hane, she was one of the most virtuous woman that one could ever find on earth. Like Tabitha during the days of the bible, she was unlimited with her acts of kindness and charity towards the people around her. Her exemplary life became a nurturing aspect for little Hane.
As years went by, Hane grew closer with the Tay's but unforgiveness and hatred had begun to sprout within her against her own family. Her heart grew cold. Though she could never agree with Mr & Mrs Koi's underhand methods in dealing with the things of life, lies had became a way of life for Hane to cover the shame and the despicable thread of her parents' deeds. The undesirable ways of her parents tinted and clang onto Hane for the longest of time. "Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit" (Matt 7:17).
The confusion of living in two different worlds brought Hane to battle herself..."
Hane is walking with God - everfilling presence.
11:55 AM
Part I
"Hane loves the morning sky. She would rise up each morning almost as exactly as the sun rose above her. As streams of light shines through her windows, she would open her eyes and with a big smile on her face, she would whisper, "thank you Lord for this beautiful morning that You've created". Then, full of hope and joy in her heart, she would prepare herself for the beginning of a beautiful new day. That would be the start of Hane's daily journey no matter how the previous day ended.
During the days when she experiences pain and disappointments, she would jot them down in her little purple journal and lay it before God, then cry herself to sleep. But the next day, she would wake up the same way as she does each morning, not remembering how her pillows got wet and her heart still filled with overflowing joy and thanksgiving to God. To Hane, such were God's promises fulfilling in her life, just as the bible records, "they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness" (Lam 3:23).
Indeed, God's faithfulness were visibly shown in Hane's 21 years of life. Since young, she never had the opportunity to express her true feelings, thoughts and views to anyone including her family members..."
Friday, April 25, 2008 Thank God for Night Time
12:43 AM
It was the first time jogging at nearly midnight in my neighbourhood. What I could hear was the whistling between crickets and the soft hustling of wind through my ears and once or twice a car would drive by. It was amazing just allowing the breeze to brush against my skin and dwelling in the quietness of the night as I paced my steps to enjoy the moment. Though it'd have been better if the stars hadn't hid behind those clouds. =) Thank God for night time.
Sometimes, a run really helps to channel your energy from your heavily burdened brain to other parts of your body.
Two papers down. Well, "when I win, I will praise God and when I lose, I will praise God", quoted from movie Facing the Giants. Whatever the results maybe, it would never alter my belief that God would give me the best He will.
While men plans ahead, God is the one who would take us through each step.
All right, I'm ready to get back to revision for my last paper on Saturday.
Monday, April 21, 2008 Shout to the Lord on American Idol
9:32 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 God's Perfect Timing
12:55 PM
Ever wonder why God always make us wait and wait and wait? More often than not, He would say "no" or "wait" to our prayers, though we, in our own understanding already know it is what's best for us. Frustrations add on as you see that tiny little opportunity bidding goodbye when God is still holding on to His "wait" policy. As the clock ticks every second, our mind swirl and begin to generate its own solutions and ideas, thinking that by some means it gonna work. But little do we know that our, maybe unintentional, actions have hindered that wonderful plan He had for us.
I know God has been and is still cultivating patience in me. The virtue of seeking and waiting upon His instruction even before making the tiniest decision (even those we think it is too insignificant to bother God for). Indeed, He is the almighty and powerful God, but each time I draw near to Him, I know He is also that loving and caring Daddy that would want to be involved in every part of my life. There is nothing of His creation that is insignificant to Him. Just the thought of what we were all made up of - the millions and millions of cells living in us and in each cell are countless numbers of molecules. That's not all. What about the elements which made up the molecules and atoms which made up the elements?
Well, there are more for us to discover. How can I, then say, that God only cares about big things.
I love God and I know He loves me. In the midst of allowing Him to mould me, I want to be of no hindrance to His works. I'm learning... Learning to let go and depend on Him alone in every step I take. I'll wait for God's perfect timing to every prayer I've placed in His hands.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 A Need to Re-Energise.
10:28 AM
I found the root of my tiredness. Note: Not sleepiness. It's like a ton of weight resting upon my shoulders and energy is leaking somewhere. Well, the inevident reason could be the lack of movement and activity for my body - that is exercise. Need to do something to trigger that energy generator in me. Right, von's place the best option so far. A swim should vitalise all my senses.
Dwelling Verse "How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you, which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you." Psalm 31:19
Saturday, April 12, 2008 Two Awesome Nights
9:55 AM
There is a tremendous joy in worshipping God. The indescribable joy and strength I've found in giving all my praises unto Him alone. We are made to worship Him! =)
One heart. One voice. We all sing to glorify His Name.
Thursday, April 10, 2008 Welcome Ms Taiwanese, Wendy Yuan!
12:11 PM
Vincent, Wendy, Katherine - We are a happy bunch!
Memory Keepers
11:59 AM
It's our gathering - can I name it Jacky's group? (Meiling, what do you think? Ha.)
The "Boys"
Qiyan & Meiling
Meiling & Simon
Saturday, April 5, 2008 The Air is Fresh!
9:07 AM
Good morning!
It's a rare opportunity that I'm able to stay home on Saturday morning like this and without any burden from school assignments to write a blog entry.
Finally submitted the 9th assignment (if i'm not wrong) which is also the last assignment for this term. It was one of the most tedious assignment especially when so much calculations is needed. Though I want to aim for best grade for my assignments, for this one, I only hope to pass cos' I did not have enough wordcount and submitted 30 mins late. But afterall, I still feel very thankful to God for strenthening me throughout this term. Without Him, it'd not be possible.
I'm feeling so good right now. =) So happy to have some time of my own to tidy up my room and sort out my notes to get ready for exam revision. At least if I did not do well for the last assignment, I'd score well overall if I do well for the exams. Fingers crossed. Gonna do my best for the exams. God had done some miracles with some of my assignments' grades and I'm overwhelmed. Surely it is not by my own might. So I look to Him for strength and focus when preparing for my exams. To God be all glory, honour and praise!
On top of all that, I'd love to be kept in your prayers. =) Have a great weekend everyone!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008 Meekness
1:13 PM
This picture just attracts me. Haa. Look at the small bullies (fishes).
I received something in an email. It is really good so I thought may as well share it. It's been my longing to serve God in a way that is pleasing to Him - acknowledging the ability He has placed in me with humility.
"Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law." - Galatians 5:23
"Meekness is the by-product of a number of elements, not the least of which are deep, thorough humility and an awareness of the seriousness of what our past conduct produced, especially toward Jesus Christ. These things have tamed the beast, broken our self-will, and made our minds receptive to the pure influences of God's Spirit. This is not natural but supernatural, the product of God's grace toward us and His Spirit working and growing in us. It very deeply, sometimes radically, alters our perspective of God, His purpose, the trials of life, the self, and other people.
This is very important regarding trials because meekness is the opposite of self-will toward God and of ill-will toward men. In his commentary on Matthew 5:5, Matthew Henry writes, "The meek are those who quietly submit themselves to God, to his word and to his rod, who follow His directions, and comply with His designs, and are gentle towards all men" (p. 1629).
Meekness is the fruit of God by His Spirit working in us. Godly sorrow softens our stiff-necked rebellion and our hearts so that we are made receptive to the workings of the Creator to produce His image in us. Therefore meekness, along with the qualities already mentioned, also includes our becoming pliable, malleable, submissive, and teachable. A New Testament term for this condition might be "childlike."
God disciplines every son He loves, and sometimes His disciplines are very difficult to bear. We have passionate drives within us to flee from them, or at the very least, to grumble and murmur under their burden. But the meek will not do this. They will endure the privation, embarrassment, pain, loss, ignorance, or persecution with quiet patience because they know that God is sovereign over all and He is working in their lives.
Meekness enables a person to bear patiently those insults and injuries he receives at the hand of others. It makes him ready to accept instruction from the least of the saints. It allows him to endure provocation without being inflamed by it. He remains cool when others become heated. Meek people seek no private revenge; they leave that to God's sense ofwhile they seek to remain true in their calling and meet God's standards.
The spirit of meekness enables its possessor to squeeze great enjoyment from his earthly portion, be it small or great. Delivered from a greedy and grasping disposition, he is satisfied with what he has. Contentment of mind is one of the fruits of meekness. The haughty and covetous do not inherit the earth. As Psalm 37:16 says, "A little that a righteous man has is better than the riches of many wicked."